I’ve got to share this. I owe a great debt of gratitude to people like Jeremy Jones and others like him. People who have followed and pursued their passions, seen the good and bad times and pushed through to the other side. One thing that keeps me stoked for winter through summer is snowboard movies! Keeps me dreaming of winter and what I work for all year.
Really I owe a great deal to many people that have enabled or encouraged me in my life. My father and mother first and foremost, all the men in my boy scout troop that voulenteered their time when I was a kid, though I hated the idea of belonging to that organization, it taught me a great deal. My boss now, Keith. Man that guy is on point, always coming through on what he said. Never judging and always respectful and encouraging. My girlfriend Misty for being totally supportive for my crazy ideas, my friends for believing and to some extent living vicariously through me. And all those who don’t share my enthusiasm for the outdoors and higher knowledge, they say if there are people who don’t agree with you you must be doing something right.
As much as I’d like to write about how excited I am about this documentary and how well that aspect of my trip is going, I need to touch on the struggle i am facing. Its not that i have resolved to not making an awesome documetary, but I am a bit discouraged. Everything is lining up perfectly in regards to the travel aspect of the trip. The patience of waiting for the equipment to film is driving me crazy, and as time passes doubt begins to work its way in. I have to say first and formost traveling and snowboarding is priority number one. Filming is second. I don’t want to say that it is not going to happen but I have to accept that it may not happen this year. The additional cost including film equipment, as I have figured it, is some where around $5000. That inclueds a location budget, legal needs, post production and so forth. Really its not a huge budget to work with but when added to an undetermined number in the thousands i am already putting forth it really adds up. The price of gas, food, equipment and any extras is a lot. So it may be an option to make this a two year project. To use this year for networking, skill building and concept development. To snowboard as much as possible because really its a personal journey and atthe end of the day Iam on a personal mission to find my truth. More on this later… Desire overcomes many obsticals. I will do what I can to make this project become a reality.
“These days are getting shorter and our sleeves are getting longer.” And I’m becoming more and more excited about leaving Los Angeles with each minute that crawls by. This road trip is going to change things. I’m not sure precisely WHAT it is gonna change. But everything I’ve heard in the past about epic trips like this has lead me to believe that we’re going to experience life on a whole new plain. And for me, new experience means new view.
It can be as simple as an album from a band I listen to, or as complex as learning a new trade. The things I involve in my life, change the way I look at the world.
They say that change is the only constant. All I can say is that I hope that’s a generalization. There’s one thing that I pray I hold onto forever. My drive. My enthusiasm for living my life on the “wild” side has stayed with me throughout the years and I feel like I’d be lost without it. The idea of becoming just another star, wandering through the abyss with no purpose, is repulsive. I MUST chase my dreams. No matter what the consequences may be.
Usually those consequences are found in the form of personal relationships. My friends and family who think I’m driving myself into the ground. They all “just want what’s best” for me. My question is this, how could you possibly know what’s best for me? Do you exist inside my thoughts and ideas of what “best” is? No, so miss me with that empathetic malarkey. Hahahaha! I love all of them very much, but don’t think for a millisecond that I wouldn’t burn every single one of those bridges in pursuit of my dreams.
Nothing is more important. Nothing.
November 24th we’re ghost ; )
First quote is “from autumn to ashes – daylight slavings”
I feel the act of spontaneity is a huge part of my life and deserves further examination. The reality is i would have not come to where i am today without really embrassing spontanious actions. There are those of us who live planned, cordinated, lives and those of us in the world who prefer to be taken by the wind so to speak. Recently the later of the two, in my life, is most true. It did not happen by accident though, it was a process just like anything else. I came through a series of observations and discoveries. The most relivant being that when i set expectaions of what i want to happen, if it doesn’t happen then there is a level of disapointment that comes with it and i hate dissapointment. I believe that through positive action towards a particular goal, like a road trip and the documentation of it, that dreams will be achieved. You could say that i came to the understanding that the energy and enthusiasm i put into the world will be returned to me equally from others, wether that be good or bad energy. My second observation was that mindfulness (keeping an open mind) provides more opportunity than that of a planned exicuted plan. Example, if Tohmas jefferson simply thought of lightning as a force of energy and not something that could be harnessed and directed we may not have the technology we do today. What i’m getting at is catigorization and conditioning of the mind, he could have perceved that bolt of lightning as a simple force of nature but he kept an open mind to other possibility. He did not limit it, the lightning bolt, to just being an uncontrollable force of nature. He preceived it as a force of nature, a naturally occuring anomily that could possibly be used for something else. How does this apply? I work on a commercial fishing boat right. If i thought of the boat only as a means to make money, thats all it would be. Instead it is a means to make money that give me a powerful energy to harness, that energy is creativity. I thought to myself how cool would it be to take photographs of what i do, show them to people and carry the message of exploration. So now after doing so I’ve chaneled my “work/money making ” energy into inporational creative energy. Can you see where i’m goin with this. I’m currently on the water right now, i’ve documented what i’m doing as seen in this photo And inspired my neigbors to take a trip to Catalina Island so that they can experience swimming in the same clear water. So to sum up the action, in viewing work as more than just a means to get money, i was able to put into action an idea that documenting and sharing my actions with others will inspire them to take an additional action. Spontanious acts have the same effect,to inspire and instill in others ideas which they can act on. They give a sence of gratitude to those involved and with out mindfulness would not be possible. Additional ways this is effecting me are in plans to take a road trip, i’m speaking in general plans not plans that are restricted. I originally had the idea to simply take a road trip for myself but through my recent experience in documenting and sharing there has been a sense of resposibility placed in me to share my experience in others. To inspire them, to share the idea of mindfulness, the idea of being creative with their passions. Without the sharred experience, without passing on what i’ve learned and hold dear, i will bear no fruit to the seed i’ve planted.